LiFe Is InDeeD a SuFFerinG

Not sure what I have gotten my self into. Why am i here? What am i doing her? What life is all about? Some times , it just hits me thinking about the path i am taking, is it a decision made by me or was it already pre-arranged? Every thing that happens does feels like i had went thru it before. The deja-wu feeling does occurred especially when i'm in for classes. It had happened before, but it stop ever since the end of high school. So , it just hit me again thinking about my " DESTINY" . What am I up to next? Always curious and wanting to find out but some how the curiosity died. Probably too tired to think about it any more. Still deep down inside me just want to get the answer now. When will I only get to know the answer? Will it be too late already by the time i get to know to make any changes? Changes that will change life.... Will it ever come....... I wonder And always pondering over this wonder that never ends. Will always be waiting , waiting and waiting. -theu...

Its a Saturday cold morning ,and the time now is 5.30. The temperature is about 15 degree here. I'm all alone at home. My fellow "owner" went out for vacation. It feels so lonely on a cold Saturday morning. Its just too lonely... I miss family.... The joyous sound of siblings fighting. Getting nagged on every thing I do by dad. I wonder how long can I stand this ........ -theunexplainable-

Hey hey... I'm sorry for the delays. First and foremost, =_) , I would like to say thanks for all the Msg , smsES , and wishes.It was really really nice of you guys to do that. I'm touched. *cries* Any way , I have to thank that I finally arrived safely after close to two days of flight. Its been a terrible and tremendous experience taking such long flights. It was close to about 28 hours of flight including transiting and all. Well , I can't complain much since it was actually quite nice flying with Northwest , just that it was a bit less spacious. First time leaving the country alone is bad, to make things worst, its was so far that i had to travel alone. Not knowing any thing about the other countries that I was transited at was horrible. Should have done some research on it, but well, i took it to spend time with friends and family , so yea, it was all worth it. Any way, upon arriving here, I guess it was a blessing of disguise that I got to know some Malaysians here, w...

OMG... I'm left with 2 Freaking Days I can't believe this, Shit. -theunexplainable-

This post is specially for you , ANGIE . -Don't lah try to cover cover. It doesn't help. =_)Pouring out liao- Nah, now don't say I don't have heart liao okay. =_) May your hand get well soon. lol. * still can't believe beemer bit you!* -theunexplainable-

Another 4 days .

Just came back about 3- 4 hours ago from the last meeting with Qi Zheng. He's flying off back to Aussie today. Have a safe journey back Qi Zheng! Some how, this year, its been really a happening year as we had not one but 3-4 times of meeting up with primary school friends. And this meet up is really making me feeling emo. It just brings back the memories during our primary school days where we would disturb each other. Its still happening now. "Thanks Qi Zheng". Any way, counting from today, there's exactly another 2 weeks to go before I fly off to US. In two weeks time would be my turn. *ohhh... NO* And I thought this to my self, I know I can cope with it. But ever since meeting back 2 Thursdays ago, I beginning to feel different. Not knowing why, but the feeling is getting heavy. Having really heavy heart. How can I cope with it. Not even knowing if I would cry on the day I fly now. I thought I was tough, but I don't think so now. Still trying to stay as toug...