LiFe Is InDeeD a SuFFerinG

Happy Birthday My dearest SISTER ! Ai Ling , Lee No worries about your studies, Just work hard and you will ace it . I have faith in you. Work hard and Play hard ! *let me know on msn/e-mail if you have any problem. Loving from afar , Sister , Hui-Ling

Song : Friend by Wonder Girl Mood : Disappointed Dear Readers, Its been some time since I last up date . I apologise for the absence as involvement in organisations had kept me busy the past few weeks. Any way, I thought friendship problem would only occur in Malaysia, but to my discover, It happens any where ! The same scenario is happening again ! I'm not sure how much can I trust friends now. No doubt it doesn't directly involve me this time, but I'm just doubting the friendship now. How can I trust a friend who doesn't even value friendship? I know every one is selfish but I definitely won't do it for friendship. Friends are made not for benefits ! Why do we have to go through this again and again? This is too much to take ! Sick and tired of it ! Screw it ! -Unexplainable -

Strong is what you think I am, smile is all you see, but what lays inside of me , is what you can never see. Tears that role down the cheek, pain that hit through the heart, can only ever be seen , when observe with the heart. The things you took for granted , thought it may not be precious , but once the lost occurred, one can no longer be cautious.

Song : 至少还有你(Zhi Shao Hai You Ni ) by Sandy Lam Listening to this song does bring back the sweet memories when I was at the age of 13. Back then my aunt was still staying with us. And this is the song she used to listen to. I am very much influence by her. No doubt we weren't always in the best click, I would have to say that I learn a lot from her. Learn how to appreciate songs ! Well looking back now, its been almost 7 years perhaps! Things have change and so does people. Changes in lives that we will never expect ! My aunt , she's now married with a child and one more in the womb ! Happily married , I hope. This is what I have been doing all week since Winter break. Looking back at old pictures and listening to old songs. Boring it seems , but well a time to catch up with what I have been missing out, Personal Time. I learn that even if alone, there's lots to be done as well. I spent the new years eve by doing a count down and followed by a prayer of my own in my room. A...

The Winter Break has started. Some how, I thought it would be a good time to have some personal space. But it turn out that i didn't know what I can do ! Its been only 4 days and i'm already bored. There's another 2 weeks before spring semester start. Its just so hard for time to pass !

I just got done with my final ESL 150 class today. It was a good but sad ending. The friendship that was bond even with just that short period of time is precious. Any how, I had been feeling depressed lately. Its probably due to the weather. Its been gloomy these days. Especially when it comes to winter. It also gets dark earlier than normal. And some how I'm missing home badly. Missing the weather that I never learn to appreciate. Being in a foreign country does makes one lonely and depressed. I am looking forward to going home. Wait for me , I would be back soon. But for now, I have to strive and do my best here in order not to regret later. Going back to studies ! Aza Aza Fighting !

I wonder where you are ? Are you in a good place ? Please live your best now. And if we have the fade, we will meet again ! I love you and will always remember the good times we spent together ! I will miss you forever ! -Take care -