nOt iN dA mOOd....


Feeling very DOWN, helpless, USELESS, trouble maker, STUPID, problem bringner, NUMB, dumb, NOT WANTED....



Feel like CRYING, DYING, SHOUTING, SCREAMING, SHUTTING MY SELF UP.........



If i don't get over this, most probably u will c no more the cheerfull n happy go lucky me....






Any way, will be going back to hostel today n will not come back for quite some time... May be if i have the time i will go n blog at my college's computer lab....






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