LiFe Is InDeeD a SuFFerinG

Its just so hard to believe that all this is happening... About may 13 n all... People were accused for things not done... N lives were killed for no particular reason.. ok may be more of being busy body... standing at the side just to watch what were to happen.... But don't u think if that happens, where is our freedom of standing freely where ever we want? N do you still feel safe staying in this country that invades your privacy? No matter if its true or not... Its always good to know the other side of the story... N judge for yourself of who's the one that's creating the havoc n all... N its up 2 you to believe about the truth.. But its never a loss to know more... N in this screw up gov of ours today, its time we do some thing do have a better change... Act now before its too late... N stop being selfish thinking that some one else would do what ur thinking in mind.... Because if every one is being contrarian, who's the one to do the job? N if every one do their pa...

Life is just so unfair.... The government can spent so much money on unnecessary things like building klcc, putrajaya n so on... Why can't they just spent some money to help those poor to relocate to a better environment? Don't you think its even more meaningful to do things like that than to spend millions n millions on projects that only benefit some? N its also part of developing the country... Some of us might have been too many times to klcc n may be even bored with the place already... But some who's to the extend only gets to eat when they work- *Malay proverbs: MAKAN PAGI KIAS PAGI, MAKAN PETANG KIAS PETANG* Can not even effort to have proper meals... Talk what some more about going there to enjoy the place... Life's just so unfair... N imagine those that takes bribe ... N some the amount is not small...It can be as high as $500 million.... So n when it was found out, they kill the person who black mails to leak it out... N later make it as thought others who wa...

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F irst of all, i would like to thank every condolence sent to me upon my dog's death. It was really kind of all of you who sent. N the concern was even a greater thing i treasure. Any way, i was abit carried away upon his death there for i apologise for the absent of blogging. But what ever it is, i'm back now so its n longer a matter. So any way, between this period of absenteeism, lots of thinking had been done. About how i would continue living my life despite not having my beloved dog beside me any more. N i finally figured it out, lifes still got to go on no matter what. Ever since that day, i have tried to occupy my self with busy schedule, but none of that works, its still comes to the same by the end of every day, i would be missing his presence, the way he breath at night as it gets more chilly, n the way he would make you pay attention to him.... But it now just too last to think back n grief of all the thing i not did... N i should just carry on with life without for...

I shall write about my dog since i have beginning to feel the lost really deep in side.I couldn't let any one c that i was crying. I didn't want to be look as week, n most of all is to avoid attachment. But i realise i failed the minute i cried this morning. I just couldn't take it to see him lying motionless on the floor. Its just so saddening. I wish i did alot for him while he was still here. I could be seen not having any emotion in the out side but i have to say it really hurts inside as i was the closest to him n him to me. He had seen me grew up. Remembering him following me to school in the wee hours just to make sure i reach school safely. Its just so touching looking back then. He would do it without fail ,every morning doing the same routine. Then when come s to secondary, he would follow me for tuition as to assist me there. Making sure every thing was right. I remember clearly there was once when he came attacking one of the guy working at the shop lots nea...

-my dog died at 0900 on the 16/07/2007-

*He's just so cute- Say no more* *The naughty look.. It's killing...man* *Doesn't he look good in the suit?* *He plays the GOLF... OMG* *He's such a poser* Hem actually i'm kind of out of things to talk about edi.. Besides what happened on fri- ABBY's Surprise Party... So i decided to include some of my CUTE GUY's pic.... Hehe.... So on fri, was suppose to go college but in the end , end up in KLCC.. AS USUAL... haha... Met up with angelyn at ampang park n main object was to actually go college but in the end we changed our mind n headed to KLCC.... While we were there, we met up with jimmy unexpectedly.... Wasn't really expecting to see him there... N besides it was a fri... So any way, went around walking... Then later met up with wayne to go xua ann's house...so went there around noon , n had lunch there 2...Got ready at around 7 n headed to the station 2 go wangsa as abby stays in wangsa... (oh ya, the party was to start at 7.30, n it takes a ro...

I'm so pressured for some thing... As the pressure comes back again, i'm feeling the stress again... Just can't seem to get that pressure away... Can they just give me a break... I know what i want to do, or am i not... Just leave me, i'm like an ant that's lost on a hot boiling pot... I'm going to get to a boiling point soon... So stop... Be 4 i burst.... I'm confused of what i wanna to do.... There fore, no matter how you push me, it will still be the same... There won't be any progress as there's no urge of it.... Giv me a break ,would you please.... -ConfuseD-

First of all, i would like to thank jimmy for his concern.. Hem, i guess it wasn't me not to blog huh?? hehe... Any way, just to satisfy jimmy's concern and curiosity, i would just post about what happened the past week... Here goes- As usual, during a weekdays, nothing much can be done as most of the time will be in college or either lagging with angie they all in klcc*fav spot-kim gary... Don't ask y... we just like to choose some place which is expensive...*wahaha... Any way, on sat, the 07/07/07 which was suppose to be some important day to most, but to me it was just a normal day as DATE was canceled sob... Being postpone to the following sat... Any way, i spent the whole day at home watched tv -my fav show the ENGINE.... nice wei.. must watch... Then on sun, didn't go temple as dad was bz cleaning up his things... so ya, again stayed at home doing nothing... Was too dead of studying as the weather was horrible... Any way, at night went for dinner at penang street ...

-I was wrong about FAMILY- -It was indeed my mistake- -I wrote it because i was mad- -Therefore, this post is about apologising for my mistake- -I LOVE YOU MOM N DAD-

What is FAMILY???? F- father A-and M-mother I- i L-love Y-you Thinking about it, you might love your parents...!!! But does your parents love you...??? Especially those with siblings... Do they really do...??? Do you get annoyed n start to hate them when they are not being fair with you...??? When you want some thing, they would giv all sorts of excuse saying that YOU can't... But when its your bros or sis, it would be a different case... It even happens when it comes to education... They expect the eldest to help support ITS siblings when they even expect you to pay for it your self... They would even say things like they have no money to let you study... But in the end when its your sibling's turn, the money would just appear from no where.... They would even be borrowing those money.... All this i'm talking about is that if your the eldest and your a gurl... But if your the eldest and your a guy, it would be a different case all together... Some how life is just so unfai...

Emotionally down since yesterday night. Didn't go college, Counldn't put my self to go, Even every other part of my body wants to leave the house. Never once i was hit that badly, It consist of all kind of pressure, Life, FAMILY, College pressure... Will just end it with some thing i thought of today.... A beggar is what i am, Begging every day, every single minute, Be it at home for food, money, fun, material stuff, love; In school for friends, happiness, attention, peace; We never seem to get bored, sick n tired of it; As never once would you come telling your self that you can't take it any more; Because the very next day, you would juts have to just beg for the same old thing. If the one day really comes, it is when your mad. A mad person will be free from every thing, free from pressure, free from sufferings, free from getting the love you don't get, n that day is the day when you really get your own happiness , living in your very own world................