DOGGIE
I shall write about my dog since i have beginning to feel the lost really deep in side.I couldn't let any one c that i was crying. I didn't want to be look as week, n most of all is to avoid attachment. But i realise i failed the minute i cried this morning. I just couldn't take it to see him lying motionless on the floor. Its just so saddening. I wish i did alot for him while he was still here. I could be seen not having any emotion in the out side but i have to say it really hurts inside as i was the closest to him n him to me. He had seen me grew up.
Remembering him following me to school in the wee hours just to make sure i reach school safely. Its just so touching looking back then. He would do it without fail ,every morning doing the same routine.
Then when come s to secondary, he would follow me for tuition as to assist me there. Making sure every thing was right. I remember clearly there was once when he came attacking one of the guy working at the shop lots near by my house. He was so protective over me. I would never forgotten that.
He would follow us out as well when we go on local vacation for example to my late grandmothers house.He would be chasing the car. He used to be so strong that he could even keep up with the car until we part at the highway. But recently his health had degrade as he get older n now no longer here with us. There was once when he followed us, he didn't came back for 3 days after we came back from the trip. That time, i really thought i had lost him. But he came back after the third day we came back. I guess he was just lost. But it did made me treasure him alot as he was who i treasure alot.
There were times i played with him, talked to him, scold him, even kissed him. He's just so cute at times that you just can't help but to love him more.Its like when you talk to him, he would understand every thing you say, even when ur feeling down, he would come n make sure that u have him to care for you. I'm not sure if you guys feel it, but he just did that. He would put his attention all on you when you come home. Excitedly wag his tail when i come back.I just misses his present so much when his not here. Today i finally realise that he really carry hope every day when he excitedly wag his tail so that you know of his presence. But i would say i fail most of the time. N today when i reached home, i just feel so empty. He's no longer there... Not any more. It feels like your heart broke into million n million n million of pieces. N this type of heart break just doesn't heal over time, it takes years n years to mend it back. I wonder would it ever heal. It would never bring him back , there fore, even if it heals, i don't see any meaning to it.
He was sicked for a few times, n he would be crying in pain every time i see him. There would be tears in him eyes, trying to tell that he's going through it.N seeing him in that situation i couldn't do any thing but only pat him on the head. Even thought the time i spend with him wasn't sufficient, but i'm contented at least i had good, fun, sad times with him. Without him with me now, i really don't know how i would over come those tough time that is to come.
But what ever it is, i would just have to accept that the time he is to have with me is up. N he's got other destination to pursue. Hopefully he would be happy where ever he is to go. N may he be well n happy always. May he be reborn as a human in a good environment. That's all i can do, just to hope for the better for him. But i will never forget him. He would always be in my mind where ever i go.
Below is a little biography of Him-:
He was born to the country malaysia in white with brown eyes and perfect body. He then came to the Lee family in P.j when they shifted there in Jan the year 1995. He was just a puppy when he arrived at the gate of no 117, jln ss26/5 taman mayang jaya. He wasn't a favourite at the neighbour's house that time as the son always bit him for his bad habit-biting shoes. He found out that the lee family showed alot of care towards him, there for, he was taken as a child in the Lee family. He was to be the third in the private family tree. The oldest daughter of the lee family got close to him back then. N he showed his caring and love to her by sending her to school every morning without fail just to make sure she was alright n reach safely in school. He did that to all the other daughters and son of Lee family when it was their turn to go to school. He never seem to complain it as a trouble to do so.This was how he went through his life all his life.It was this until one time when we was caught in an accident. His leg was injured, he couldn't even walk properly. He spent almost 3 weeks to a month to recover from the injury. He was really in pain as tears did fill his eyes. Then later,another few accident as he was very active at that time. But none was as serious as the previous one. It was in 2000 or 2001 when a major disease hit him. There was a hole on his face. It was due to a fight he got him self with the neighbours dog. He was really badly injured and nearly died. But was healed by his owner with traditional medicine. If it wasn't for his owner, we would have died in the vet. Cuz his condition was really bad n by all means could have died any time. In the process of healing, there were maggots in the hole that was the cause of it not healing. But when his owner found out, he took it out one by one just to make sure it wasn't bothering him or hurting him. At that point of time, he was really lifeless as thought he was prepared to die. But he got thought it after just a few weeks. He was back to normal by the 3 week it self. Every one in the family was happy to see him back even thought he was a bit notorious back then where he likes to go to the garbage to find for food n bark at those that passes the front gate. He was a very naughty dog when he was young. He used to bark at old ladies that uses the road in front of the house. He would even chase those that are on bicycle just to scare them. But he was no harm to any one. They always say a barking dog don't bark, but when you see a dog that doesn't bark, you must be really carefully with it.That was him when he was young, just like every other dog, likes to disturb those that are easy to be disturb. Then later in his life, he lived a normal dog life. It was recently when his owner found out that he was getting old. Started to have hearing and eye sight problem. But they didn't think that it was serious at that time. They were also too busy with shifting house that time to notice about his aging. When his owner shifted, he was brought together to the new home, but couldn't situate him self there as he frequently goes back to the old house to rest and so on. He got used to it later after about a week. But he was still not used to the new house. As he grew up at the old house. He was there for about 12 years. N today, when his owner woke up, they realise that he was really getting old. They saw him fall lying even when he was standing very still before that. N he didn't even want to eat this morning when given his routine food- peanut butter jam bread. Then when his owner gave him those smoking biscuit, he was eating it with full of joy. N they thought he was still alright. There fore, they brought him out for walk later but he refuse to walk after a few steps. N demanded to go home. Upon reaching home, he did not want to enter the house .He might have know that he was going away already n wanted to guard the house for the last time. But still his owner brought him back in just to make sure he was shelter. But at 9.00 this morning, he passed away peacefully facing the gate .It was as thought he still wanted to guard the house even he was already away and wants to guard the house forever. His owner found out about his death and quickly inform the whole family. Later that day, he was buried at the SPCA in K.L as he was destined to be there with his other fellow buddies and friends.This was how he went through his life. With all the ups and downs, joy and sad times, loving n caring time and so on. He would always be remembered in his owner house even thought he's no longer here. The good that he's done to the family in priceless .May he be in peace and may the dhamma be with him . May he be well and happy always.
*IN LOVING MEMORY OF THE BELOVED DOG- DOGGIE*
-0900, 16/07/2007-
Picture of him would be up soon. That would be in the next post.
Remembering him following me to school in the wee hours just to make sure i reach school safely. Its just so touching looking back then. He would do it without fail ,every morning doing the same routine.
Then when come s to secondary, he would follow me for tuition as to assist me there. Making sure every thing was right. I remember clearly there was once when he came attacking one of the guy working at the shop lots near by my house. He was so protective over me. I would never forgotten that.
He would follow us out as well when we go on local vacation for example to my late grandmothers house.He would be chasing the car. He used to be so strong that he could even keep up with the car until we part at the highway. But recently his health had degrade as he get older n now no longer here with us. There was once when he followed us, he didn't came back for 3 days after we came back from the trip. That time, i really thought i had lost him. But he came back after the third day we came back. I guess he was just lost. But it did made me treasure him alot as he was who i treasure alot.
There were times i played with him, talked to him, scold him, even kissed him. He's just so cute at times that you just can't help but to love him more.Its like when you talk to him, he would understand every thing you say, even when ur feeling down, he would come n make sure that u have him to care for you. I'm not sure if you guys feel it, but he just did that. He would put his attention all on you when you come home. Excitedly wag his tail when i come back.I just misses his present so much when his not here. Today i finally realise that he really carry hope every day when he excitedly wag his tail so that you know of his presence. But i would say i fail most of the time. N today when i reached home, i just feel so empty. He's no longer there... Not any more. It feels like your heart broke into million n million n million of pieces. N this type of heart break just doesn't heal over time, it takes years n years to mend it back. I wonder would it ever heal. It would never bring him back , there fore, even if it heals, i don't see any meaning to it.
He was sicked for a few times, n he would be crying in pain every time i see him. There would be tears in him eyes, trying to tell that he's going through it.N seeing him in that situation i couldn't do any thing but only pat him on the head. Even thought the time i spend with him wasn't sufficient, but i'm contented at least i had good, fun, sad times with him. Without him with me now, i really don't know how i would over come those tough time that is to come.
But what ever it is, i would just have to accept that the time he is to have with me is up. N he's got other destination to pursue. Hopefully he would be happy where ever he is to go. N may he be well n happy always. May he be reborn as a human in a good environment. That's all i can do, just to hope for the better for him. But i will never forget him. He would always be in my mind where ever i go.
Below is a little biography of Him-:
He was born to the country malaysia in white with brown eyes and perfect body. He then came to the Lee family in P.j when they shifted there in Jan the year 1995. He was just a puppy when he arrived at the gate of no 117, jln ss26/5 taman mayang jaya. He wasn't a favourite at the neighbour's house that time as the son always bit him for his bad habit-biting shoes. He found out that the lee family showed alot of care towards him, there for, he was taken as a child in the Lee family. He was to be the third in the private family tree. The oldest daughter of the lee family got close to him back then. N he showed his caring and love to her by sending her to school every morning without fail just to make sure she was alright n reach safely in school. He did that to all the other daughters and son of Lee family when it was their turn to go to school. He never seem to complain it as a trouble to do so.This was how he went through his life all his life.It was this until one time when we was caught in an accident. His leg was injured, he couldn't even walk properly. He spent almost 3 weeks to a month to recover from the injury. He was really in pain as tears did fill his eyes. Then later,another few accident as he was very active at that time. But none was as serious as the previous one. It was in 2000 or 2001 when a major disease hit him. There was a hole on his face. It was due to a fight he got him self with the neighbours dog. He was really badly injured and nearly died. But was healed by his owner with traditional medicine. If it wasn't for his owner, we would have died in the vet. Cuz his condition was really bad n by all means could have died any time. In the process of healing, there were maggots in the hole that was the cause of it not healing. But when his owner found out, he took it out one by one just to make sure it wasn't bothering him or hurting him. At that point of time, he was really lifeless as thought he was prepared to die. But he got thought it after just a few weeks. He was back to normal by the 3 week it self. Every one in the family was happy to see him back even thought he was a bit notorious back then where he likes to go to the garbage to find for food n bark at those that passes the front gate. He was a very naughty dog when he was young. He used to bark at old ladies that uses the road in front of the house. He would even chase those that are on bicycle just to scare them. But he was no harm to any one. They always say a barking dog don't bark, but when you see a dog that doesn't bark, you must be really carefully with it.That was him when he was young, just like every other dog, likes to disturb those that are easy to be disturb. Then later in his life, he lived a normal dog life. It was recently when his owner found out that he was getting old. Started to have hearing and eye sight problem. But they didn't think that it was serious at that time. They were also too busy with shifting house that time to notice about his aging. When his owner shifted, he was brought together to the new home, but couldn't situate him self there as he frequently goes back to the old house to rest and so on. He got used to it later after about a week. But he was still not used to the new house. As he grew up at the old house. He was there for about 12 years. N today, when his owner woke up, they realise that he was really getting old. They saw him fall lying even when he was standing very still before that. N he didn't even want to eat this morning when given his routine food- peanut butter jam bread. Then when his owner gave him those smoking biscuit, he was eating it with full of joy. N they thought he was still alright. There fore, they brought him out for walk later but he refuse to walk after a few steps. N demanded to go home. Upon reaching home, he did not want to enter the house .He might have know that he was going away already n wanted to guard the house for the last time. But still his owner brought him back in just to make sure he was shelter. But at 9.00 this morning, he passed away peacefully facing the gate .It was as thought he still wanted to guard the house even he was already away and wants to guard the house forever. His owner found out about his death and quickly inform the whole family. Later that day, he was buried at the SPCA in K.L as he was destined to be there with his other fellow buddies and friends.This was how he went through his life. With all the ups and downs, joy and sad times, loving n caring time and so on. He would always be remembered in his owner house even thought he's no longer here. The good that he's done to the family in priceless .May he be in peace and may the dhamma be with him . May he be well and happy always.
*IN LOVING MEMORY OF THE BELOVED DOG- DOGGIE*
-0900, 16/07/2007-
Picture of him would be up soon. That would be in the next post.
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