fRieNds........
its been a while that i have been thinking about friends... after much "experience" of knowing friends... i'm sad to say that i do not know who r the true and who r not... really am skilless when it comes to this... the reason for this post to be here is because, i'm fed up to put up with friends like that..... backstabbing like no body's business, influencing others to hate the person u hate, telling lies about another person which is to create havocs, telling other people's secret to some 1 else, get to know u'r secret and use it 4 them self<>........... i am REALLY... and i mean REALLY sick with these people....
i have no idea what the fuck have i done to them.......... why r they doing these??? what the fuck is wrong with them... have they nothing better to do other than to create some excitement???
i am really tired of all this... and its only the been few months we know each other..... i do not see a logic for them to do that....at times, i really felt like giving up all of them... live in a lonely miserable world of my own... leaving the world behind without caring a fuck of them.... it really pisses me off.... treating them with pririority, put so much effort of maintaining the friendship.... and in the end what fuck do i get??? being BETRAYED??? is this the way??? i really want to trust some 1... for the sick that i trusted them so much... but now that i know... its not about friendship now... i guess the friendship now is all about using friends to achieve what ever u'r ultimate goal is... looking back the good old days of primary and in kindergarten, friends were more trust worthy, and sincere....to the extend of naive.... but still their hearts were true.... this is some thing we learn new in life as we grow older....
i thought friendship were all about trusting each other and no secrets kept between each other, but i guess i'm wrong... the more of a friend knowing your secret, the more dangerous your life in stake....is there any more people that are true towards their friends???
lies after lies coming out from a friend you trust so much......... it really hurts ... and it not only hurts , but it hurts so deep that you your self feel depressed about it.... and now that the disappointment had turn into hatred... i'm thinking if i could ever accept the fact and continue be friends with them....
knowing your friends u treasure so much to say some thing like "don't let her know that we r going some where" or not being invited to some outing they plannedknowing from a third party about the things your "friend" organised...... when confronting , questioning them about all this, they can just cover it up by saying that they did not organised it and that it was organised by some one else... and trying to tell you that they tried to invite you, but because the organiser didn't like you, so they didn't invite you over.... and what shit about the organiser not liking me??? never ever heard of that until now??? it some times funny , don't you think so??? knowing ever single detail about it to confront , the person can just twist and turn around and blame it on other people that we even hardly talk to before??? Wow....... i guess your such a good actor after all... putting some face infront of us and another behind out back???
some times i just feel like telling those people u have told me before that is bad about them to let them know how two-sided face you are... but , some how i just can't do that..... i just can't .... its not the fact that i'm scared of you... but just trying to play my part as a friend after all you have done... please don't make me do it... i do not know what shit hell i will do when i decides to do it.. and you should know me... i can be very nice out side, but never over estimate my inner self.... i have done things to the extend of turning the whole world around against the person i hate..... please don't do that..... if your ever reading this..... please bare that in mind.... i can be nice but never step on my tail..... just leave it as it is... what ever you like whether if its friends or not friends... don't ever touch me or i'll do some thing i will not be sorry for....
live your life and i will live mine.... nothing to do with each other.............. i rather sacrifice my self now than to sacrifice you later......... you know who you r........
i have no idea what the fuck have i done to them.......... why r they doing these??? what the fuck is wrong with them... have they nothing better to do other than to create some excitement???
i am really tired of all this... and its only the been few months we know each other..... i do not see a logic for them to do that....at times, i really felt like giving up all of them... live in a lonely miserable world of my own... leaving the world behind without caring a fuck of them.... it really pisses me off.... treating them with pririority, put so much effort of maintaining the friendship.... and in the end what fuck do i get??? being BETRAYED??? is this the way??? i really want to trust some 1... for the sick that i trusted them so much... but now that i know... its not about friendship now... i guess the friendship now is all about using friends to achieve what ever u'r ultimate goal is... looking back the good old days of primary and in kindergarten, friends were more trust worthy, and sincere....to the extend of naive.... but still their hearts were true.... this is some thing we learn new in life as we grow older....
i thought friendship were all about trusting each other and no secrets kept between each other, but i guess i'm wrong... the more of a friend knowing your secret, the more dangerous your life in stake....is there any more people that are true towards their friends???
lies after lies coming out from a friend you trust so much......... it really hurts ... and it not only hurts , but it hurts so deep that you your self feel depressed about it.... and now that the disappointment had turn into hatred... i'm thinking if i could ever accept the fact and continue be friends with them....
knowing your friends u treasure so much to say some thing like "don't let her know that we r going some where" or not being invited to some outing they planned
some times i just feel like telling those people u have told me before that is bad about them to let them know how two-sided face you are... but , some how i just can't do that..... i just can't .... its not the fact that i'm scared of you... but just trying to play my part as a friend after all you have done... please don't make me do it... i do not know what shit hell i will do when i decides to do it.. and you should know me... i can be very nice out side, but never over estimate my inner self.... i have done things to the extend of turning the whole world around against the person i hate..... please don't do that..... if your ever reading this..... please bare that in mind.... i can be nice but never step on my tail..... just leave it as it is... what ever you like whether if its friends or not friends... don't ever touch me or i'll do some thing i will not be sorry for....
live your life and i will live mine.... nothing to do with each other.............. i rather sacrifice my self now than to sacrifice you later......... you know who you r........
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