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RaNDom PiCTureS..... * nICe? my future house will be hopefully near the beach * oRhanage N oLd- foLkS tRiP dUrinG cHinEsE neW yEAr..... * with the old-folks* * with the old-folks again * * orphans n us * *with orphans* moMEnts in cAmPs..... *with campers in sayornara camp* * a fews campers with the sayor committees* *with z han in yDc* *with lun-lunn my sisters in d2Y camp* mY fAmIly In coLLege..... *sis,grandma,me,father,mother* *with angelynn-my SiS(younger)* *took in college 2* *randomly took in class 1* *randomly took in class 2- c the diff?* *nICe* *any comment???* *PreTTy???* CuTe ANImal's PiC..... *hoW bOUt tHis???* *CutE???* * eVen cuTEr???*

Feeling very DOWN , helpless , USELESS , trouble maker , STUPID , problem bringner , NUMB , dumb, NOT WANTED .... Feel like CRYING , DYING , SHOUTING , SCREAMING , SHUTTING MY SELF UP ......... If i don't get over this, most probably u will c no more the cheerfull n happy go lucky me.... Any way, will be going back to hostel today n will not come back for quite some time... May be if i have the time i will go n blog at my college's computer lab....

some how , i just didn't go ... no jonker street, food n fun... *pls: don't ask why...

No thing much happened this week becuz as u know i had been sick since sat/sun... so mostly did this week was sleep ,sleep , n sleep until thursday when i started to study... Had a few study groups on in the library... Even it does help, never do it when exams r nearing as much time will be spent on chatting ... Any way, i think i'm prepared to leave .. hehe... I can take care of my self very well edi except the eating part... Make my self my own medicine as normally when i'm at home i will cry for 1 from my mom.... Being manjaed is very nice... But some how when ur sick.. Its best being pampered n cared... N the eating part was horrible... No 1 fed me with food on mon.. Had to eat bread... Sob... N that was like close to almost 12 or 1 when i woke up realising i had a high fever... But at least i had some thing to eat lah... Shouldn't complain... But i thank god i'm alive with no sickness or not... I guess the next time u c me will be end up some where else... haha......

It s really difficult to not be feeling well... Sitting in front of the computer don't know what to do... Had been stuck at home all day... Part of it is due to being sick but most of it is also because i'm grounded of going any where for 2 months... But after being grounded for almost 2 weeks, i'm getting the used of it already...But not too sure if i can survive another 1 month and 2 weeks... But i guess i still can survive another 2 to 3 weeks i guess... As exam is getting nearer and nearer,will really need to find time to study instead of looking for things to do to kill time... Any way, some thing just came across my mind... Its about helping ppl in Kenya... Was watching one of the vcd my parents got from the temple... Bhante Wimala's humanities project in Kenya.. Its really saddening to see people there suffer with lack of nutrition where else people here are spoilt with varieties of food.. And kids this days are getting choosy... Not wanting to eat this and that....

Haha.. I'm back for this week... em.. before this was saying that i will up date the blog every day.. but it seems like it can't very much be achieve cuz of beezee schedule n also lack of tool(comp & Internet connection) so i guess i will onli be able to up date every weekend when i'm back in p.j... so this week is pretty beezee... n its really pathetic when u don't have enough money to spend... hem... thinking about working part-time.. but don't know if i can achieve it.. hehe... besides that, this week is full with all works... but i haven't seem to have the mood yet to study.. n exam is like the week after next.. kind of scared but don;t know where to start since i'm already left out quite alot ever since this year... hem.. hopefully will find a way be 4 next week... em.. on just got a nose ring.. a longer n nicer one... its blue.. hehe.. some how that's the only colour that matches me...oh jamie i'm so sorry.. i guess the movie will have 2 be...

hem.. sien... wanna watch movie... any 1 wants to go with me? msg or call me ya... wanna watch the metrosexsual...

i just got a nose piercing recently and that was bout 2 weeks back... but be4 that i had another 1 be 4 but it closed du 3 to my sensitive skin... n that time the only thing my parents say was that it spoilt my features... n that i shouldn't have done it.. but was was done was done that time... n later as i said the hole closed.. i didn't bother to get another as it was quite pain also to get 1 on ur nose...then it didn't came across my mind that i would go and get another one at the same spot... it was my college fren .. angelyn that made me so eager to get one again... becuz she promised to get 1 as well.. n this time without much hesitation i got it.. this time was faster then the previous as i was quite prepared to get it.. n i already knew how the pain was.. so i tuk ... it went thru ... n normally if i do some thing i would ask my parents permission first... but i did 4 this as i thought they wouldn't have any objections as i used to have 1... but i was wrong ...

Its been along time i didn't update my blog edi .. i going to make it a point now to update every week... *i promise-hopefully i will be able 2* Hem, oh... before i forget, the previous blog i posted- the poem was actually taken form one of the book... n the name of the author... em.. sorry i forgotten... hehe .. will look up on that.. any way, like i said, its been a long time since i last up date... n i kind of like don't know where to start... hem i guess there's too many things in my head running now... * ** *** **** ***** ****** ******* ******** ******* ****** ***** **** *** ** * ok let me start with CNY ...( i know i'm abit too late.. hehe but its always better 2 be late then never right?) ok so..CnY was like dead e me .. it seems to me that CnY didn't come at all.. the mood n spirit of Cny wasn't there at all... i'm not sure for the rest of u.. but i felt it... n my stupid college only gave us like 3 day of holiday where else every 1 gets at...