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Just came back from a gathering... Feeling stupid... Cuz i thought today's gathering with my secondary classmates will be good... But it turn out to be the opposite..N i think i shouldn't have go for it in the first place...Knowing that it would be like this, some how i still gave it a try...I have rejected alot of times for their previous invitations, but i gave in still thinking that i would be different... But, it feels really disappointed N feel rejected, out of place n worst still unimportant... Just not going to feel stupid again for it... So i shall continue rejecting it.. N not go... After all, they aren't that important to me either.. why waste time on each other??? I feel like killing ppl now...

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