LiFe Is InDeeD a SuFFerinG

Some thing that I have said to my sister kept me thinking again.It was something about friends. Yes,you're hearing it again... FRIENDS . She had trouble with one of her friends a few days ago. N when she came consulting me about it, i told her that , if she(the friend)still insist on the same thing, just walk off. N start distancing your self from her. N i told her that, she only does that if she thinks that the friendship is no longer worth it to "prolong"*a better word*, sh also needs to be strong n not soft hearted... Friends comes ,friends go any way, so why bother one who's not worth it at all??? So any way, back to the topic again.... Some times, when you want to criticize about your friend, think about it, what is the point when you keep complaining & complaining that she's too this , she's too that, she shouldn't this , she should be like that.... Does that sound familiar to you? Ok, if it does, think about what i am about to say. What is the h...

Hem.... Can't seem to sleep.... I guess i'm missing HIM too much... *=p* Hem... should have been thicker face n ask for his contact num... See now regret liao.... Hai ... Bet his back in jap already now.... -ur mine =p - *Missing him already now, N his KILLING ME SOFTLY...*

Went for GT Race last sunday... Got the tickets free from my auntie.. She got the entrance thicket n also the PIT WALK ticket as well... I was so happy when she told me about it.. But she later told me that i was suppose to go my self... How on earth? i have no car... Then when i told my friend about it, she was like cool... But in the end she didn't make it as she couldn't go as well... So any way, When i was at my most disappointed moment, my told me, she would drive me there as she didn't want to waste the ticket as well... N this is the last year her company- SRII is going to sponsor all this races*that includes F1 ,GT motor , n also this GT car*... So any way, the both of us went with one of her friend...Went to pick him up in klang... N that time it was raining cats n dogs in klang... N we were saying it would be nice to see it it was raining as there would be some drifting happening.. But upon reaching there, it was hot as if we were in desert... Any way, those race...

Some thing kept me thinking today..... N its about life... As i was at the kelana jaya Lrt station, it just kept me thinking about life when i walk passed a beggar...He was on the floor begging for money... N it was very saddening to see such thing... May be i'm not really used to seeing... But i really wanted to donate some money to him.. But on second thought, i was thinking.. If i gave him my money, i am actually encouraging him to beg for money even more... But later i looked at him again, he's different from the rest of the beggar i have seen... He was physically disable.. N He doesn't look like a person who has been disable all his life time... But by the time i figured about it, i had already walked passed him... N that's not just it... It continued to kept me thinking about my life.... As i had said earlier, he doesn't seem to look like a person who had been disable all his life time... So the thing is, may be he had met with an accident of some thing... N ...

Now these day, the mood to blog is becoming lesser and lesser... Some how i have no idea why... N coming online is no longer some thing interesting ... May be i'm bored with coming online already... Its not only that, even life is getting boring as well... I remember when beginning of college, we used to have a lot of activities like frisbee, badminton, ping pong... Remembered playing with jason , yih wei, way shoon and noel ..... We would randomly take a day, some times twice or thrice a week to go for activities in the evening... That was when i was still staying at MU (Melati Utama condo)....Some how it all stoped when some unexpected event happened... Any way, what i wanted to say is that i really had fun there living together with u guys... I wish i could turn back time... But unfortunately, i can't.... Some how the memories will still forever stay with me...Memories will remain memories, life still goes on so live life to the fullest guys....No matter what happen ya.....

M3 N Tina First of all, i would like to say thanks all for your concern.. I'm okay already... I have think things through... N i finally can say i'm slightly enlighten already... Hehe... By the way, i have already let go of it... So lets leave those things behind and look forward...Since there's lots of obstacles to come as we still have a long journey a head.... As i just said about long journey a head, last week was a really fun, tired, sad yet memorable week... Even things which wasn't that pleasant happened, but there was times where i really enjoyed as well.... Ok , lets get into it... On saturday, morning was as usual... Nothing much... went for breakfast, came back, mingled around.... Had dinner.... Wasn't very formal... but had 2 as it was fathers day.... Formal celebration would be carried forward 2 this week.... Any way, after dinner,i rushed over to Island cafe in ss2 for a primary school reunion... I was quite late.. I reached there just before 9... N it...

I have no idea what had got into me. I'm becoming a more self centered person... Not wanting to mix around with people any more... Its just hard as i really have major mood swings.... I could be happily talking the first minute , the next minute u will see me not talking to any one at all... I have no idea if this is call the mood swing depression or not.. But i just can't seem to control my swings... At the slighter's thing i could actually make a big fuss about it... But what ever it is, after thinking ,much just now by locking my self in the room sobbing, I finally realise, i'm actually lack of some thing... But i still have no idea what the some things is.. I'll try my best to find out... In the meant time, i will just continue being the way i am... After all that's the real me actually... If you really know me, you will know that i'm a very sensitive person where i do not tell most of the things to those people i do not know... There's alot more in ...

Hem, some how, just felt like blogging again... May be its because of the emptiness in my heart.... Ok it relates to a friend... The person was a very dear friend i treasure a lot when we really got to know each other.. N at that time , i really thought we would become best of friends... But in the end it only lasted for a light to past by... When thinking about it makes me mad at times for the effort n time i had pumped in to improve the friendship.. But what can i do? Its not up to me to do any thing already.. If the person choose to go the other way, i could only wish the best for the person... As i'm already sick n tired of having to initiate the moves first... Letting every thing go n forgetting what had happen is just so difficult... But i know the person still doesn't know that i'm feeling this way as i know there is no point of me telling as the person doesn't even make me their priority... so why still insist on it... But now the only thing i'm still doin...

Sigh kena tagged by Tina.. Any way,Tina thanks for the tag...... :-) So here goes the content of the tag... 1) 5 things found in my bag - My purse - Sunglasses - Glasses - Phone - Keys 2) 5 things found in my wallet - My I.c - Money*but most of the time gone after coming back from college... cuz would always stop by at klcc...That's where all my money goes... wahahahaha...* - Cards - Coins - Plaster *for emergency haha* 3) 5 favorite things in my room - My BeD.... - Cloths - Cosmetics - Personal Stuff... - Accessories 4) 5 things i've always wanted to - Confess my love to my love ones... - Get more cloths - Help in orphanage - Know more people*currently working on it* - Have more money 5) 5 things i'm currently into - My new crush - New crush - New crush - New crush - And new crush..... =p 6) 5 people i tagged ...

I'm so sorry to leave the previous blog hanging there... But that day my mood was really bad... I think it was more of being sad than any thing....I will review the matter later... I should continue the other day's story first... So ok, i think i left after saying about SAT... Hem, so after SAT, had 2 days to study for 3 subjects... And on the first day, i was thinking there will be tomorrow n tomorrow would be a better day to continue studying... So i procrastinate again.. until tuesday where i was rushing to finish studying all 3 sub...n that was tiring... never do that.. u will die studying.. haha... any way, then came wed... the day... first paper was accounts... had a bad n nervous feeling the night be4 , even had a dream that i failed it... But after doing the paper, i guess it was quite ok... as it wasn't as hard as the 1 we had during mid course... that was really tuft... oh... one more thing, talking about mid course, result's out... n was sent to my parents, b...

First and foremost, would like to apologise for not up dating this few weeks.. Had been bz with exams n all... It was the most hectic time ever... First came SAT (yap.. the last time i'm taking this.. hopefully) then AS exam by cambridge... It was quite hard i would say... The first paper was business paper 1... N it was like what the hell? Didn't know this thing exist n all... *talking about the mean n median part for those who took the exam*... Then the next paper was General paper.. It was Ok.. i guess... Or its either Ko loh... haha.. But i'm seriously not hoping for an A in G.P as Our class AN7C had our proper knowledge of how to draft an essay only a week before the G.P paper...ohh..Any way, had a week break after that.. N was suppose to study... But ended up playing... Haha... at least i studied for SAT... so... The whole week spending studying SAT since SAT was the next thing on the list... So was already prepared for the exam one day before.. N some how i felt scar...