LiFe Is InDeeD a SuFFerinG

*Up datE* Life has been boring once again... Kind of feel that life is all about exams. Just finished one not too long ago and now another one is coming. All i do remember is study study in my mind. Dad has been nagging about it almost ever day may be its just because of my " what ever comes comes attitude". I just don't , and still never learn, and may be not going to learn until some thing comes up about how i should take things urgently, no matter if its some thing that i find not important. But the fact is that , till now, i just can't leave off my comfort zone... Been too long in it, and i guess its just hard to leave it. Its just like my sleeping habit. I just can't stand to sleep only 5 hours. I will DIE, and i mean DIE if i only get that amount of sleep. Cuz i am after all a sleeping beauty. I know , i know i am sleeping my life away, but what can i do? My priority is to sleep and i find that that's some thing i look forward to other than eating. This ...

*Up datE* Today its been very hectic. Went to the library to study today with Erina. She was one person you would want to study with. May be we're the same type of person(joker/lamer) , we click. Then later we did some thing very crazy. Guess what? We walk all the way from the Tmn Tun Library to 1U... Imagine this. It was under the hot sun at 5 in the evening. And i was wearing all long and black in colour. But surprisingly, it took us only 15 min to walk there. But i find that its not that crazy after all. i might have to do that soon. I must learn how to be independent. there are alot of things i have to be on my own already. I should not depend too much on my parents on ever thing. Any way, spend about 2 hours there. It is really a day i would remember always. A day where Erina went with me to library to study. And also did crazy stuff together. I would never have done it alone. Thanks Erina. It's really an exciting "outing" with you. We shall do that one day again...

*Up date* Its Been a long time since i last up date. I always been postponing to blog. I guess it wasn't the time yet to blog. But i finally got the inspiration to blog again. Okay, This post would be about some thing i feel this week. Its some thing i feel deep down inside . So if i ever offend you, i am sorry. But just discontinue reading. I wouldn't mind. Okay here it goes. Some times i feel that in life , most of the time you depend on friends. I would also agree. But is it to the extend that you are so proud that you are being accepted into a group? To be in a group, it used to be some thing i look forward to. But ever since i being betrayed again and again by friends, I began to think about what so great about being accepted into a group if they do not even respect you as an individual? What worst when they even talk behind your backs when you are not around about the things you did which wasn't pretty accepted by them. And you can still happy say that you are being a...

*up date* Okay, first of all i have been having a very hectic week. Exams here and there. And even on a SATURDAY. Can you believe it? Imagining your self going to college where every one else are off especially for those who are working for the government/semi-government now. Ever since saturday was delcared as a non working day, saturdays have been an extra day off for those working for government. Wherelse for those private company, its still the same, waking up early going for work even on a saturday. But last saturday was very different from other saturdays as the day before -friday , was a public holiday where all malaysians celebrated MERDEKA. And most of working people would take the opportunitie to have an extra day off. But us A-Level students of Tunku Abdul Rahman College Students had to wake up on that very day it self just to go for exam. We did not even have a day off on the public holiday on friday as we were all busy studying for the exam the next day. That morning, it w...

*Up datE* Okay, please forgive me for not keeping my promise. =P I blog earlier than i promise i would not . Hehe I tried not to but i could not hold my self back by using the computer again to blog. Any way, this post would not be those i promised in the previous post. As i really have only limited time to up data a simple one. I better get to the point now. It is actually about a dream i dreamt last night. This dream was very weird. It was about me who choose to kill my self. I was on a vacation overseas with family and with me was my sister and auntie. The interior design in the dream was fantastic. Even the lift is so grand and big which is filled with branded bags. It was so nicely laid on the displayed transparent box. And theres even chairs around for guest to sit in the lift. I forgot how many floors there were but it was many. And the part i remembered most was that i requested to be injected with poisons which would kill in 4 hours with bubbles coming out of my mouth or not...

* up date* As mentioned in the previous post, i went away out of the city for about 3 days. This 3 days really made up the time for me to spent it with my family. I actually had a very bad feeling before this about going as i thought it would end up a disaster to the getaway. But never the less, i went and in fact it turn out to be tremendously the opposite of what i had thought in mind before. And that, it was a good way of repairing the relationship with my parents and siblings. I had always fought with my sisters especially the one who is just 5 years younger than me. I always thought to my self that she always find other people's fault and never look on hers at all. But i realise that i was wrong after the end of the 3 days. May be all this while i have under look on her. She was not very compromising in the beginning when we were about to leave the house as there was a slight argument about our personal belongings. But later upon reaching the destination, things began to move ...

Some how i have begin to let go of all the things i always thought i would have it for life... And it feels good to let go of the burden... All this while the burden had been adding... It is a difficult decision, but i hope you guys would respect my decision... We will still be best of friends... Its just minus the togetherness that's all... Don't worry about how I'm to live the rest of the 3 months... Cuz i know i will survive... Thanks alot for the care n share of all this while we were together.... Hope for the best for all of you... *Pls : when you come and talk to me, pls let it not be asking me why or try to convince me... LOvE lots, Hui-LIng ___________________________________________________________________ * up date* Will be away from home for 3 days.... Will only be back on mon.... Going on a trip..... Hopefully every thing will turn out fine.... Lets hope it would be a good break away from stress..... Till then.... *next post* -unexplainable-