LiFe Is InDeeD a SuFFerinG

Some how just don't feel like going for the party tonight already.... Tell me what to do.... Its in shah alam... The reason might be becuz i'm too excited that TOEFL exam is over... Or may be that i'm not ready to meet them back again... what am i going to say to them? What are we going to talk about? But i really wanna go and meet up my primary schoolmates.... How??? I haven't seen them 4 a very long long time edi... sigh........

Just finished TOEFL test not too long ago... Hem.. It's a relief .... Some how still just don't understand why i just can't get over the feeling of nervous before n during exam.. Hem, any way, got to know a guy-indian there be 4 exam... Haha.. don't get me wrong, i did not initiate the conversation... We were talking about very general stuff about exam an all.. The main thing i'm trying to say here is that, now i'm not the odd 1 that might leave for us... Thinking of it, i used to think that it was weird about it.. But some how by talking to him changes my point of view... Oh any way, upon registering for the test this morning, this lady came to me and hand me a form to fill in, while she was handling me the form, she handled with asking if i had my IC or my passport with me. And when i said yes, she asked me if i was a foreigner..... DO I LOOK LIKE I"M NOT LOCAL? Sigh, this is not the first time i know.. But so how it bothers me alot when she asked me ju...

Wanted to blog yesterday, but some how the mood wasn't keen enough to continue blogging, but some how today i'm inspired to do so. Any way, i wrote this on a piece of paper before transferring it over the computer as my sister was using the computer just now. So the reason that kept me to blog for this post it that when i was clearing up my stuff just now to prepare to shift to a new house next month , i came across some thing which i think i should apologise to some one for it.I will review the person later. As i was saying,that some thing was a note included with a chinese new year card i received this year. The card was a simple normal one. But what makes it out standing was the note inside which touches my heart after reading it once again. Therefore , here i am blogging about it. In the note , the person updated me about every thing was happening in the temple all this while when i wasn't there.She was trying her best to tell me about every thing that was happening in ...

Hem was woken up by dad's phone call this morning from sleep... Hem... must be thinking y my dad called such early in the morning since he could have just went to my room n do so... Hem, here's the catch my family went out for some outing organised by my mom's company... N since it was suppose to be a family outing, u must be wondering how cum i'm not with them... Hem, here's it... I'm suppose to stay at home n study... hehe... ANOTHER exam's coming up soon... Fast izn't it? haha... I know... But i guess i'm immune to it already....Any way, why did dad called ? To wake me up from sleep to ask me study? haha... Wrong.... It was becuz my grandpa's car got problem ... He's car couldn't start... N i was asked to go n help out... They were there helping as i thought they would be there already having their outing... So any way, dad called to ask me help my grandpa out so that they could go off as they were already quite late for the event... ...

Would like to continue one what i left half way the previous blog.... Actually i'm not saying that the friendship will end there.. But its just that i do not know how we can go back as how we used to be... Knowing from A- Z of every thing that is happening towards ur fren... But now i guess the most general thing about them u wouldn't even know... How sad some times if u think about life... But what hurts the most is that when u see them u just try to avoid... Trying to minimise the chances you acknowledge ur fren... Another thing is that when u have a fren which u click very much u just some how wanna stay close... N try to ignore the rest of ur frens... But u just can't do that... I remembered doing that to a fren.. N in the end we weren't even on talking terms... Its just so sad... But now i get the feeling of how it feels... I finally realise when u have put all ur attention on a person n so does the person but suddenly the person started to divide the attention......

Hem... 2 days in a row had been watching movie... Haha.. May be this is a symptom u get when u had not been watching movie for quite some time... So any way, went movie with angelyn at klcc... Hem u guys must be wondering how Come i go watch movie in klcc when i'm suppose to stay in hostel Its not on the way also??? Hem... FYI, i'm back this week as there's some thing i need to settle... Haha... and now i'm bz blogging... Haha.. I guess I'm hooked to my blog edi... Any way, we watch the Hannibal Rising yesterday.... N its darn nice... The actor is cute... He's a french actor.. Haha.. To spoil the story line to some of u who haven't watch the movie... He kissed gong li.... His supposing auntie in the movie... Haha.. Guess wat angelyn said when it happened.... " She's so OLD "..... Haha.... I have got nothing to say but to agree with her as its true.... Then today, we went to watch The Reaping... Hem actually we wanted to watch "jangan panda...

Was forced to wake up to follow my parents to go brickfields temple... I was banned from going any where including SJBA temple but was forced to go to the one in brickfields.... So any way, reluctantly woke up n went... Upon reaching there, i had this feeling of unbelonging ..It gives me a feeling that i no longer feel belonging.... May be its becuz there isn't any one any more that makes me feel like going back... I'm not saying of other people... But my group of friends which we use to be very close back then... But it seems that every one has drift apart ever since every one leave for a year of so called study leave for SPM... Remembering back then we always hang out at out favourite spot with is behind of the pagoda...Thanks to mike becuz he's the one who found out about the place as when we fell like "tuanging" class, we will go there... There's the place we cry, laugh, share problems, share jokes, play all together.... Some how i feel that for every thin...