LiFe Is InDeeD a SuFFerinG

Some how just don't feel like going for the party tonight already.... Tell me what to do.... Its in shah alam... The reason might be becuz i'm too excited that TOEFL exam is over... Or may be that i'm not ready to meet them back again... what am i going to say to them? What are we going to talk about? But i really wanna go and meet up my primary schoolmates.... How??? I haven't seen them 4 a very long long time edi... sigh........

Just finished TOEFL test not too long ago... Hem.. It's a relief .... Some how still just don't understand why i just can't get over the feeling of nervous before n during exam.. Hem, any way, got to know a guy-indian there be 4 exam... Haha.. don't get me wrong, i did not initiate the conversation... We were talking about very general stuff about exam an all.. The main thing i'm trying to say here is that, now i'm not the odd 1 that might leave for us... Thinking of it, i used to think that it was weird about it.. But some how by talking to him changes my point of view... Oh any way, upon registering for the test this morning, this lady came to me and hand me a form to fill in, while she was handling me the form, she handled with asking if i had my IC or my passport with me. And when i said yes, she asked me if i was a foreigner..... DO I LOOK LIKE I"M NOT LOCAL? Sigh, this is not the first time i know.. But so how it bothers me alot when she asked me ju...

Wanted to blog yesterday, but some how the mood wasn't keen enough to continue blogging, but some how today i'm inspired to do so. Any way, i wrote this on a piece of paper before transferring it over the computer as my sister was using the computer just now. So the reason that kept me to blog for this post it that when i was clearing up my stuff just now to prepare to shift to a new house next month , i came across some thing which i think i should apologise to some one for it.I will review the person later. As i was saying,that some thing was a note included with a chinese new year card i received this year. The card was a simple normal one. But what makes it out standing was the note inside which touches my heart after reading it once again. Therefore , here i am blogging about it. In the note , the person updated me about every thing was happening in the temple all this while when i wasn't there.She was trying her best to tell me about every thing that was happening in ...

Hem was woken up by dad's phone call this morning from sleep... Hem... must be thinking y my dad called such early in the morning since he could have just went to my room n do so... Hem, here's the catch my family went out for some outing organised by my mom's company... N since it was suppose to be a family outing, u must be wondering how cum i'm not with them... Hem, here's it... I'm suppose to stay at home n study... hehe... ANOTHER exam's coming up soon... Fast izn't it? haha... I know... But i guess i'm immune to it already....Any way, why did dad called ? To wake me up from sleep to ask me study? haha... Wrong.... It was becuz my grandpa's car got problem ... He's car couldn't start... N i was asked to go n help out... They were there helping as i thought they would be there already having their outing... So any way, dad called to ask me help my grandpa out so that they could go off as they were already quite late for the event... ...

Would like to continue one what i left half way the previous blog.... Actually i'm not saying that the friendship will end there.. But its just that i do not know how we can go back as how we used to be... Knowing from A- Z of every thing that is happening towards ur fren... But now i guess the most general thing about them u wouldn't even know... How sad some times if u think about life... But what hurts the most is that when u see them u just try to avoid... Trying to minimise the chances you acknowledge ur fren... Another thing is that when u have a fren which u click very much u just some how wanna stay close... N try to ignore the rest of ur frens... But u just can't do that... I remembered doing that to a fren.. N in the end we weren't even on talking terms... Its just so sad... But now i get the feeling of how it feels... I finally realise when u have put all ur attention on a person n so does the person but suddenly the person started to divide the attention......

Hem... 2 days in a row had been watching movie... Haha.. May be this is a symptom u get when u had not been watching movie for quite some time... So any way, went movie with angelyn at klcc... Hem u guys must be wondering how Come i go watch movie in klcc when i'm suppose to stay in hostel Its not on the way also??? Hem... FYI, i'm back this week as there's some thing i need to settle... Haha... and now i'm bz blogging... Haha.. I guess I'm hooked to my blog edi... Any way, we watch the Hannibal Rising yesterday.... N its darn nice... The actor is cute... He's a french actor.. Haha.. To spoil the story line to some of u who haven't watch the movie... He kissed gong li.... His supposing auntie in the movie... Haha.. Guess wat angelyn said when it happened.... " She's so OLD "..... Haha.... I have got nothing to say but to agree with her as its true.... Then today, we went to watch The Reaping... Hem actually we wanted to watch "jangan panda...

Was forced to wake up to follow my parents to go brickfields temple... I was banned from going any where including SJBA temple but was forced to go to the one in brickfields.... So any way, reluctantly woke up n went... Upon reaching there, i had this feeling of unbelonging ..It gives me a feeling that i no longer feel belonging.... May be its becuz there isn't any one any more that makes me feel like going back... I'm not saying of other people... But my group of friends which we use to be very close back then... But it seems that every one has drift apart ever since every one leave for a year of so called study leave for SPM... Remembering back then we always hang out at out favourite spot with is behind of the pagoda...Thanks to mike becuz he's the one who found out about the place as when we fell like "tuanging" class, we will go there... There's the place we cry, laugh, share problems, share jokes, play all together.... Some how i feel that for every thin...

Em.. i would like to clarified some thing... I'm sorry MEL.... Its not about the B'day celebration of yours.. N definitely its not about u.. I'm really happy to see u again.. But that's just u i'm happy to see... I'm actually mad at some thing n its just that some one lied to me about some thing before attending it... N its not the first time edi... It had happen alot of times... N to add things on thanks to some 1... Spoiled my mood ... I'm so sorry i didn't mean to make u worried about me... Hope you understand.. hehe... N thanks for asking.. hehe... Ur one person i'm really glad to know during our secondary school years.. N i also wanna clarify some thing.. MEl, ur some 1 important to me... I wrote that none of you are important becuz i was really mad at time... But i really didn't meant u... But may be if u wanna meet up the next time, make that the both of us only??? hehe... so sorry.... But i some times think that its hard to click in any ...

Just came back from a gathering... Feeling stupid... Cuz i thought today's gathering with my secondary classmates will be good... But it turn out to be the opposite..N i think i shouldn't have go for it in the first place...Knowing that it would be like this, some how i still gave it a try...I have rejected alot of times for their previous invitations, but i gave in still thinking that i would be different... But, it feels really disappointed N feel rejected, out of place n worst still unimportant... Just not going to feel stupid again for it... So i shall continue rejecting it.. N not go... After all, they aren't that important to me either.. why waste time on each other??? I feel like killing ppl now...

On thursday, it was the B'day of my mui-mui(sista).. N i school we celebrated it with the cake that ah yung they all bought.. Hehe... We took lots of pic of the B'day gurl- AnGelYn ... Then came yesterday which was friday, we all went over to her house to celebrate for her... Hehe.. So yesterday, i went home with her early as i will have trouble going later... Therefore she had been joking about me being her kuli for the day... So yesterday, i was very well prepared to be her kuli edi.. but some how em.. i thought i will have to help out alot... But in the end, hem...Do abit only... Swt...So lets see what we did yesterday.... After having lunch at her house,i felt so energetic cuz her mom's cooking wahh.. How to say ah.. Very very nice leh... The sambal, the soup, the japanese toufu n the egg... Nice wei... So any way, we went out to shop for the things she's short off for the party... Let me try to list it all out... potato sprite sausage whipping cream Sunkist butter ...

Feeling down... not knowing the reason why... Any way, this is what happen this week... I received a missed call a few days ago...N so i missed called back not knowing who that was... As i have been receiving lots of missed calls lately from anonymous ... So the person missed called back... N i replied buy miss calling back again... It continued the process of missed calling until today, when the person finally reviewed it self... It was a primary school mate of mine who shifted to kuantan 6 years ago which was end of year six back then which i thought i have lost contacted with already... Some how she got my number becuz she received a CNY card i sent over to her this year which i blurry forgotten.. Hehe ... U must be thinking how blur i might be... I guess its becuz lots of things had happen this few weeks... Any way, i was surprise that she would message me... In the msg , she introduce her self n told me that she was surprise to receive my CNY card... As u guys know....

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Before- I'm feeling : depressed song listening to : Keep holding on-A.Lavigne you'll find me : on the beach Hem... Bored.. Not knowing wat to do.... Just finish being nagged... Sigh... When is this going to end? Study...Study...Study.... It's not that i'm not studying... Y can't they just understand it... I can understand it if they can't c that i always study during the weekdays in college... But can't they just trust me...??? Now i understand that if u don't c proof , people will never trust you... To me its ok if u don't believe, but pls don't compare me with others that u c who's studying... I Hate It... Really HATE it...especially when they compare me with my second sister... They would say that she had been studying all week long n all... N they would demand me to be good like her... I don't mind if its true.. but the fact is that she's just acting for the sick of letting my parents know how good she is... IT'S ALL A LIE....

sorry.. wasn't being able to up date my blog during the weekdays.. cuz was really bz with exam.. n i think i screw it all... cuz when ppl was having exam, i was bz kap chai That's y i say i think i screw it.. hehe.. Any way, here's what happen this week.... On thursday after our exam, we went klcc 2 celebrate.. hehe.. photo up date later ya.. Then yesterday-friday, we went Sg. wang n Time Square n we took lots of pic... here's it.. oh.. but exclude the view n the 1 taken in college... hehe... EnjoY...... NiCe viEw ????? Me in gown... hehe... Me ,Angie N Abby... Angie n Me... Angie n Me again....hehe Me , Angie , N Abby (Time Square) Me , Angie , N Abby again hehe.... Me ,Angie ,N my Grandma in Time Square....again... Angie N Me in college...heheh

Hem, feeling bored so decided to blog again.. hehe..Em this week I think I blog quite a lot of times edi especially yesterday… Hai… very long winded leh me… hehe.. Any way, I’m thinking of taking out my nose ring… Its very painful… May be its being infected edi… Sob… This 1 sendiri cari pasal wan… So have to take the consequences… Don’t know should I or not? Cuz I feel saying also to take out… Don’t know what to do lah now… Exam’s this coming Tuesday… Man n I’m still not done with the studying… some how just can’t concentrate … Don’t know why… Hai.. I think I will study every day from now on even though no exam.. cuz its really stressful studying like that(imagine crashing all subject in 1month n1 subject is not little u know… like an encyclopedia… haha)… Next week erina coming back but don’t know whether I will be able to go n c her.. cuz I most probably not coming back 4 the next 2 weeks… hehe… *Erina if ur reading , pls come n c me in my hostel leh… hehe.. then u get to c how the ho...